The Lord is good. He is faithful to His children. He has built goodness into this universe. He cannot move without sending forth another motion of goodness toward His people. It would be good to see His goodness flowing our way as a series of waves. One time I was in a desperate place. Bills were starting to come due. I had a big family. We couldn't get our school curriculm that we wanted. We had to pass up on several 'bargains.' A number of appliances started to break down.
But as I kept coming to the Lord, His promises were still so true. We were not sure where the money to care for these things would come from. But we had His great peace in our hearts. We focused on doing what God wanted us to do and trusted that He would care for those needs in His time.
There was a temptation of course not to trust God but that is nonsensical when you are so vulnerable! If God doesn't supply, then we are truly in a bad way. Only miracles could help! There was no other money source. There were other ways to get money, but that was not God's will for us. He didn't want us to get a loan or mortgage in order to get money. Nor did He (I believe) want me to be distracted from the work He had set before me. That would have resulted in failing Him.
Because of God's unfailing goodness, we knew that God brings us to low points so that we can see Him as a great and fantastic Provider. Low points were designed to make the high points all the more precious and memorable. And so as we see Him provide for those needs, we and the children alike were amazed at God's good hand upon our lives.
Let me share just one story of the many ways God cared for us during that time. A family who whom we knew moved out of town happened to visit our area for several weeks. Out of the blue, they called and wanted to visit us at our home. They didn't really want to come in; they only wanted to drop off an envelope. As we pulled out the wad of bills, we just delighted in God's way of supplying our needs just as the right time.
I have started 'seeking' the Lord more.Ê Just by adding a few minutes here and there- now have the bible on ipod to listen often, praying with my husband, a bible study group and watching some channels on tv with people preaching of all the wonderful promises of God- I have now found that my time is used so much better nowadays. I just started with talking to God and the moreI did the more I wanted to.
Especially lately, I have been going through really difficult financial times, and yet Gd keeps delivering me through them. Just the other day I got money I really didn't expect at all - and I had just been praying but worrying at the same time about how I'd pay my bills, but as always God came through, and I felt and still do feel so bad for ever doubting this great Lord and King. I shall never doubt His might and love for me again!